有安杏果 .... I guess, i'm in too deep, yet again...
I used to think that, 杏果 Losing her Voice,
or 杏果 Stoping Her Solo Activity is what I fear the Most,
What would hurt me the most...
But Today... Today I now know what hurt Me the most...
Watching Countdown concert, 杏果 is Dancing in Black dress
It was Beautifull but at the same time that 杏果 started to dance
I start to feel Uneasy ... Anxious ... worried....
I'm Afraid... I'm Afraid that what happen in FNS will happen again...
and it really Happen again..near the end of the song,
She is Turning, and showing Her thigh and black undergarments...
Seeing 杏果 Flashing her Thigh and her Undergarments...
I feel Pain inside of me...it Hurts ... It Hurts a lot.. とっても苦しいです
I felt Pain when i saw FNS, But i thought it's just me being Moody
cause there's lots of thing Happen lately...
But I guess it's not just some kind of Moody feeling that i felt...
杏果 is "Just" another Artist ... and She is Far, verry far awway...
why can't i think of her as any other artist....
why i felt this kind of "deep feeling" over her...
a Feeling like of that Brother to her sister ...
I guess i've been listening to ココロノオト way too much...
and i'm being Intoxicated by 杏果's voice so much,
that her Voice felt so close to me like of someone that is a close relative of mine
and that Makes me felt this kind of feeling over her...
2018 is starting...and Still no Certainty of 杏果 Solo will continue this year...
even if it's continued, I don't know if it will makes me Happy,
Because I know i'm going to get Anxious, Uneasy and Worried for each of her Solo concert,
Mainly about the costume that 杏果's will wear..and her Health condition
.(杏果's Singing is already something that need not to be worried about)
This feeling, this kind of emotion, To have this kind of "emotional feelings" toward 杏果...,
...It scares me... It scares me a lot...
maybe i should back up alot, stop watching 杏果's performance
and just listening to ココロノオト once in awhile...
杏果、お疲れ様です
今までありがとうございました
頑張ってね, Not Just in singing as an artist, but also
As a Woman, Please appreciate yourself more
世界の一番素敵なLadyになってください
何でも善良で楽しいもの杏果今がやってる、応援します♪♡♪
早く寝る、早く起きて、
「早寝早起き病知らず」
よく食べてとちゃんと休んでね、
あなたの体と喉を大切にください。
Ａｄｅａｌｆｉ@有安'sファン